Sunday, April 13, 2008

Tuesday, April 8, 2008


I have been terribly busy the last few days, enjoying my new role as tech support. I figured, I'm sat at home all the time, I'm good with computers (more specifically macs, as I haven't used a pc for more than a few minutes in 3 years), so, why not make use of it?
I registered on the macrumors forums, and have spend the last few days solving peoples problems. It helps me in a few ways, because in a vague sort of way, I get the social contact that I so long for being stuck at home, I get to help people, which always feels good, andIt passes the time. I'm thinking of possibly registering on other forums too, like macosxhints. We'll see.
Also, Alyson, who had a grump the other day, finally signed in to talk to me. It was, in fact, to moan, because my server, which she uses for free, is playing up. However, she's stressed at the moment, because she's got her photography portfolio to complete, and she had a bad week last week, although she hasn't yet explained to me why. So, I shall let it slide, as always. At least we're talking again. This is good.
I've upgraded my iMac to a 120Gb hard drive, and am currently looking at ripping it apart and replacing the cooling fan with a silent one, that would be awesome.
I seem to remember saying this would be interesting. Whoops.

Monday, April 7, 2008


I'd like to welcome all my new visitors, after looking at my stats it seems my visitors have doubled, and people are starting to return. Not bad considering I haven't been going for long. So welcome, enjoy, feel free to come back, and post some comments!

I'd like to make an apology though for faffing about with the themes recently, because I really can't be bothered to create my own. But I kinda like the look of this one, and thus it's staying.

Anyway, CONTENT. Yes. Well, I don't think I mentioned, but a few of my mates returned from uni for the holidays the other week. Unfortunately, I was too ill to go out, but Alan was staying here for an extra week, so I sent him a text asking if he wanted to go out, and I'd try and get someone to drive me in. He didn't reply. This was almost two weeks ago. It turns out that his granddad died, and he spent all his time arranging/attending the funeral. Damn that sucks.
Talking of granddads, mine.. is a bit... podgy. As in he wears XXXL clothing. This morning, he tells me he's loosing weight, and says "I bet I weight less than you now!" Um, yea. Way to make me feel good. Besides, you might weight a stone less than me, but I ain't podgy (I have a bit of a belly, but a 36" waist isn't bad, his is 48" or something.)
Also, ended up having an argument with Alyson again. fun fun. Basically, I use jabber (Gtalk), and I made her install it to talk to me, only she had a mard about it, as so I caved in, and said I'd install MSN just to talk to her. Bearing in mind, I have a Mac, and MSN ain't too good on Macs (Both adium and aMSN sign me in, but show me as appear offline). So, I installed it, and after much faffing, signed in. Whereupon she had another mard, and refused to talk to me. *sighs* I don't know why I bother.
ANYWAY. *ceases whinging* It makes my head hurt. Next post will be more light hearted, I promise.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Or not.

*collects all plans for money making website*
*throws them in the bin*

It would seem, that although my software is great for my dad's colleagues, it would also seem that they are so tight, they won't even open their pockets for a collection for a dead guy's family. So, although I could always open it up to others, I'm lacking the funds to set up the server etc in the first place. A start up fund as it were. So, all plans are out the window.
Which is a shame, because damn it was well coded. The google home page is 21kb and loads in roughly half a second. Mine loads completely including database access and processing, help, faq and about pages (it all loads at once) in 12Kb, and 100ms. Pretty impressive if I do say so myself.
Ah well, it seems that it's doomed. It'd given me a splitting headache too, slaving over the code for the last few days getting it all done and multi-user ready. What a waste.
A certain suggestion from Harlan over at so very alone, I should write these posts all in one go, no re-reading, no checking grammar. Just throw drivel at you. You never know, I might take his advice.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

It doesn't matter if you're black or white, the only color that really matters is green.

It seems I may have stumbled upon something awesome. I was writing a bit of perl code to process my dad's fuel receipts, as his company is effectively making him pay for their petrol by being sneaky in the way they work things out. Perl was too complicated for his as it involved command line, which I'm comfortable with, but he's not. So, I rewrote it, in php, using a mysql database as a backend.
He mentioned how others he worked with were having the same problem, so I suggested he ask around and see how interested they were. As in, are they willing to pay? Because if they are, and they can pay enough to cover website hosting, I'll stick it online, make it multi-user, and have my own web-start up, taking donations through paypal to cover hosting/maintenance/caffeine costs.
If all goes well, I get money, a better server, and more importantly, a purpose. God, I'm so bored at the moment. It's been ages since I've had any contact with the outside world other than through the internet. It's depressing. Oddly, if I had the choice, I'd rather be alone than with people. But, when you have no choice, and the isolation is extended. It becomes tedious. I'm fed up, and I need something to do. This might just provide it.
Fingers crossed.

Friday, April 4, 2008

When you want to fool the world, tell the truth.

Wayyyy. I actually got some sleep last night. Which is quite counter-intuitive, as I was up till 2 in the morning, because I just didn't feel sleepy. Recently, my headaches have been getting worse, and I finally bit the bullet and started taking something (I don't like any sort of drug, I prefer to let my body deal with things on it's own). So, now I'm munching on 30/500 Co-codamol, which is prescription only. I still have a headache, but it's probably the clearest my head has ever been. So, combined with the Spearmint and chamomile tea I'm drinking, I'm calmer and I'm sleeping better than I have in years.
I have had a few arguments with Alyson over the past few days, which is unfortunate. It seem that when I go offline normally, she assumes I'm sulking. Wrong. I'm usually getting really aggravated, and I go offline to give us both a chance to calm down for a bit. Because, quite often, she's being a damn arse too, only she would never admit it. Anyway, what I've been doing now is staying on, trying to calm myself down, and work it out. I do realise that it's quite often me, but not always. I'm also quite willing to apologise when I've gone off on one. Unfortunatly, she isn't, and often, her points are low blows, of the "you suck" and "i'm better than you" variety. Still, it seems to be working.
Kelly spoke to me for the first time in a while too, which was nice. We have drifted apart quite considerably though, and with her new stupid-hours job, and the fact I can't get out the house easily, I find it unlikely that we'll drift back together again.

Thursday, April 3, 2008


I really don't like religion. I don't hate it, and a certainly don't hate people who are religious. I think if someone chooses to believe in something, then thats entirely up to them. What I have a problem with, however, is preaching. I hate when people try to force their religion upon others. I think that's wrong.
My beliefs are quite simple. I choose not to worship any god. I believe there may perhaps be some higher being out there, possibly more than one, however, I won't believe in any one specifially unless he/she/it chooses to reveal itself to me. I refuse to adhere to any rigid belief structure, or to label my belief. I believe that we all have our own choices, and those choices affect our future. I refuse to believe that our future is already mapped out for us. See, wasn't that simple. I will not, ever, force this belief upon someone else. I will not try and convince someone with religion that they are wrong. I am quite happy to debate theology, and often I will win, as I have actually read a good portion of the bible, and I think it's a very nice collection of stories. But only stories. A lot of which don't actually portray their god in the best of lights.
Anyway. I think people should choose what they want to believe, and that belief is personal, and therefore, I see no reason why people who believe different things cannot live together without starting arguments, or wars, over it. I think people who are fanatical about their religion, and see anyone who doesn't believe as heretics or infidels, should be herded up, and forced to live together, and forced to listen to recordings of their own bullshit. Then they can hear how stupid they sound. I think that people who go mad over a cartoon of their god are stupid, and need to get a life. IT'S A CARTOON. I think that people who arrest somone because they allowed a child to name a teddy after their god should stop and think for a moment, this is a child, who knows the name of their god. Surely thats a good thing? Surely the woman is not responsible for what the kids decide they want to name their damn teddy?
Stop being so ridiculous.
That is all.